Pictures

Okay, I know this is going to sound crazy, but I can't stand pictures of people on book covers or the walls because I feel like they're staring at me.

I like to read in the bathroom. It doesn't matter if I am using the bathroom or in the bathtub. I just enjoy it. The problem is that I feel like the faces on the covers are staring at me, even if they're just cartoon faces. It's very annoying and embarrassing. I have to put something over the covers just to go to the bathroom.

I also don't have any pictures up on my walls because of this problem. I think the worst part is having to come up with excuses when people ask why my walls are so bare. It's not like I can just say, "Oh, I can't put anything up because then I'll think the pictures are looking at me." I'd come across as completely insane. I have to say things like, "I'm just really picky and haven't found anything worth putting up." But then I have to come up with an excuse when people give me pictures to put up. I want to tell them to mind their own business, but I also don't want to be rude.

I suppose the better solution would be to figure out why having pictures looking at me is so threatening. Then I could work on solving the issue.

Grocery Shopping

I don’t like grocery shopping. The whole time I’m in the store, I am trying to convince myself that people aren’t looking to see what I’m buying and then judging me for it. I tell myself that I don’t look in other people’s baskets, so why would they look in mine? I only buy enough for a day or two at a time because I worry that people will think I’m going to eat everything that night. I try to get in and out relatively quickly. I don’t like to rush too much because it might call attention to me. I only buy unhealthy food at Walmart because it’s not as close as the grocery store and I only go there every week or two. I guess I am less worried about people recognizing me (and remembering what I last bought). Also, I can use the self check and avoid checkers making comments about what or how much I am buying.