Swimming

I’ve been considering going swimming in the mornings. The only thing holding me back is a fear of being drowned. I know it sounds crazy, but whenever I think about going to the pool by myself, I get this image in my head of someone sneaking up behind me and holding me under water. It wouldn’t be terribly difficult for someone to sneak up on me either since I wouldn’t be wearing my glasses in the pool. I don’t like being snuck up on. I get scared very easily by it. Just the thought of being snuck up on (leaving out the drowning part) is horrible enough to keep me away from the pool. Add to it the drowning part and there is just no way anyone is going to convince me to go unless I can learn to control the disturbing image in my head.

I’m perfectly aware that it’s highly unlikely for someone to drown me. I know it’s ridiculous to think that someone would. That’s the most frustrating part. I know it’s irrational, but I can’t seem to get the image out of my head. I try to not think about it, but that makes it worse. It’s funny how the more you don’t want to think about something, the more it seems to invade your thoughts.